Thank you guys for your responses to my post. It is 11.45pm here and I don't feel at all sleepy and have managed to get through the day. I do not feel as fragile as I did this morning. I seem to act as if everything is OK as long as no one throws me a curve ball and asks anything out of the ordinary of me.

The irony of the fact that I spend a large portion of my time caring for my extended family when I am not really capable of looking after myself properly is not lost on me.

I know that I should be looking for professional help but that would mean doing something that would create a stressful situation and I am not sure if I could do it right now.

I have a sister who has many apparent classic bipolar symptoms but I don't know if she has ever been diagnosed, but that is a whole other story. But I do see some similarities between us but she becomes much more manic than I do.

I really am not sure that I want take drugs for the rest of my life. If I was diagnosed are there other options for treatment? I took the Bipolar Quiz and saved the score but can't find it again now but was either 31 or 32 , I think.

Kezzie