I don't know. I just have the urge to post as a way to be connected to my T. I wish I had asked her if she was coming back tomorrow or Monday. I don't want to bother her again, but I feel like emailing just to ask her to email me that she's home. She did that another time when I asked her to and I didn't even miss a session that time.

I want to get it over with already that she reads my emails and writes back "don't worry, it's ok" or something reassuring. Or, just to know she's back.

I feel depressed because I thought I'd do "better" when she went away because of the 'bears." I know she didn't forget me, and maybe thought of me because she had her bear, (I cringe when I think of the silliness of this whole bear thing) but the intensity of my feelings is starting to embarrass me. Any suggestions?