I lost in the last 5 years family members, important ones like, aunt, uncle, mother, and many neighbors and friends. It left me in shock and scared, unable to go on because it looked like everyone I cared for was gone. I even lost a very beloved dog at the same time. I thought how could I go on anymore. Many family members who were close during the illness of these relatives are now not calling me or getting in touch. So I too feel I have lost even them. I guess this is life. We have to try to go on and remember better days of the past. I know I feel lost now and miss them. I cry often and keep saying why all of this so close in time? Before I could get over one another was gone. For the longest time I felt so insecure not knowing what was coming next. I feel your pain and understand how lonely it can be. Keep posting because I know someone will have the right answer for you soon.