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Originally Posted by rainbow8
I don't know. I just have the urge to post as a way to be connected to my T. I wish I had asked her if she was coming back tomorrow or Monday. I don't want to bother her again, but I feel like emailing just to ask her to email me that she's home. She did that another time when I asked her to and I didn't even miss a session that time.
I want to get it over with already that she reads my emails and writes back "don't worry, it's ok" or something reassuring. Or, just to know she's back.
I feel depressed because I thought I'd do "better" when she went away because of the 'bears." I know she didn't forget me, and maybe thought of me because she had her bear, (I cringe when I think of the silliness of this whole bear thing) but the intensity of my feelings is starting to embarrass me. Any suggestions?  |
Hi. What do you mean by "bears"?
I gave my T a coin from a foreign country that I visited which was a place that he had always wanted to visit once. I didn't think much of it but I felt good being able to give him something in return, be it a small token, a coin in fact (duplicitous meaning there?).
I would have a hard time accepting anything from my T though, but for many people that is a way of being "connected" to them while they are in between appointments, which I know a lot of people struggle with. I think you shouldn't feel silly about trying to maintain a connection to your T while you are gone. Anxiety needs to be dealt with in healthy ways, and posting here with others who also struggle with various T issues alongside our own traumas and pathologies and life issues is HEALTHY.
I think your brave for posting your emotions, which is something many of us struggle with. So, thanks. And yes, keep posting. Maybe emailing her is a good idea. It certainly couldn't hurt, and in fact, I see it as good idea of preventing relapses while away. I'm sure your T agrees or he would never have given you his email address.