Thanks guys I know I should just think about myself but thats one of my biggest problems. I get lonely my dr says I have a fear of abandonment I think she's right so I'm trying to stay away from anything serious. Chris told me he might move back with his parents I really wish he would then i could leave in my pld apt and not worry about anything but myself and my friends. I had to quit drinking alcohol because of a new medication I started taking. It's really hard because I started to use alcohol to mask my pain and loneliness now I'm stuck on confused I don't know what to do anymore