I tried emailing my therapist to tell her how low I feel at the moment but I can't seem to find any correct words. I keep writing and re-writing it and I give up now. She always says I can email her but I find it really hard to do so because everything I write is too shameful and too exposing. I can't tell her how bad it is because i'm embarrassed. She'll just think i'm being over dramatic and maybe she'll want to cut me up too in her mind because she'll be so angry at me. I feel so self indulgent and pathetic that I want to hurt myself ....so I can only imagine how it sounds to other people! ....No wonder 'they' (her/therapist) likely wants to cut me too!!

Pretty paranoid. I can't explain properly because it is too shameful and... if it is true .... well yeh. Bad.