I'm doing better today. Took me about 5 hours to get out of bed and get dressed (I had to lie down for another hour after that because showering sucked up all my energy) but I made it to the library and it turned out to be a very productive afternoon for me. The bad thoughts are still nagging at me but I'm slowly managing to rein them back in. The thing with my depression is it's extremely cyclical -- I go for weeks without noticing it until it hits me HARD, lasts anywhere from a few days to two weeks, then it relents again. I also know it has a lot to do with the weather, which has been miserable lately. I was lying in bed yesterday thinking that in terms of where we are in the year, I'm right on schedule to have another attack. I'm finally starting to come out the other end of this particular episode, thank goodness.

I can't get in contact with my T over the phone and I haven't made an appointment with her yet. I was going to do it on Friday but I couldn't get out of bed, so that didn't happen. :s I will definitely do it first thing tomorrow morning, though. The depression tends to keep better track of how much I'm neglecting my health than I do. This latest episode has been a VERY harsh reminder that it's been a while since I had any therapy, not to mention the chance to relax. I'm going to make a dr's appointment too. There's a med I've had added on to my current one to get me through rougher parts of my year, like winter and around exams, and in the past it's been a lot of help. Hopefully that and getting back into my light therapy will help.