You know what my dream has always been? To help people. Whether that be through being a therapist and helping people sort out their emotional problems or even taking poor families in and helping them get back on their feet so they can live on their own again and be a happy family. I've always been a nature care taker and a giver. I don't care if I make lots of money, I'd be happy doing it for free if I knew I could get by with it.

That's always been a huge dream for me and lots of times when I'm high, I think about it and get teary eyed. Thinking about how my life could be amazing and worth something but the drugs consume me too much to do any of it. I know I'm weak when it comes to using dope but that doesn't mean I can't make it. So cheers to another day of clean time! Todays day 3 (I think?). My body is hurting like hell, it's my bones and muscles mostly. Eating everything in sight and it's starting to really bother me. I want to lose weight, not gain it.