Warning this might trigor

I have never had this happen...and I feel horrible

my bf started hitting himself infront of me and caused bruises on his face. He told me he can't take me complaining anymore and that I make him want to hurt himself and commit suicide.

I complained that I thought we were oging to have a romantic evening and it tore at me becuase I did all these romantic gestures before he came home at 2 in the morning at my house after work...and he just went to sleep beside me. I guess I was upset because I thoguht about it all day and my hopes were too high.

He told me that he is obsessed with me and could not see me leave him and be with someone else.

I told him he should leave me if he is going thorugh this much pain being with me...I don't want to be the reason fro someone injuring myself...and it makes me feel relaly bad as a person. I don't like myself.

I started crying and went in the bathroom...he came in and grabbed me hard and I told him not to grab me and pulled a way...he grabbed me if harder by the shoulder and arm and puilled me on the chair to sit down. he told me not to move and if I did he would break up with me. he started yelling at me and hitting himself infront of me and I wanted him to stop but everytime I tries to stop him from hurting himself he pushed me a way and he is really strong. I then just held him and hugged him...some how I was able to do this...and he just broke down and cried and asked what kind of person he turned into and said he used to be so happy.

I don't even know what to make of this...I'm traumatised