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Originally Posted by Eileen2010
I've only been seeing him for 4 mos...I don't trust him, I'm not even sure I like him, it's only been 2 wks into our break....SO why do I FREAKIN miss him?
I'm sitting here remembering a session several weeks back, where I told him some benign family secrets (not the bad stuff) and I kind of mentally left the room at one point. So I leaned forward in my chair with my hands clenched in front of me looking down at the floor. And he talked me back, somehow he got in close, moved his chair forward and leaned forward, but not to close...but close enough so I "felt" him there. And it didn't freak me out, and I didn't run, and it was ok.
Ugh...this is weird for me...I've had several T's, but that was a connection that one time...and now I'm thinking of it, and now I want to connect again...but I can't because we're on a break, and I am supposed to not care about not seeing him cause I don't get attached to anyone...and....crap...
What is this?
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Hey Eileen. When do you see him next?
You think your gonna tell him what you told us when you see him next? I'd be curious to see his reaction to the matter. Maybe it isn't about some pathological attachment. Maybe you just feel like he might actually care and might actually be good and you connected and you want to work on your issues more with him. There is nothing wrong with that at all.
I want to connect with my T again, but that will have to wait a month or likely longer. I feel as though I have a lot to talk about. I haven't seen him for like, 6 months. So, I'm seeing someone who might be able to help in the interim period next week until I can see him again. I still would rather go back to my T because of the fact that I AM connected with him. Nothing wrong with connections.
