Hi my name is Jared im 14 years old and live in Holland
I suffer from severe depression and am feeling suicidal
I have been bullied since second grade because of my weight and even though its not as bad as it used to i still feel the pain and am very insecure
I hate myself for letting it get this far and i hate my body i have attempted suicide before
Nobody knows about this except for my mentor at school and one classmate i feel like i shouldnt have told them and just ended it then because the asking questions is only making it worse
I dont want to talk to any psych or something and like that i could really talk to that classmate because she is suffering from anorexia and mild depression herself even though she is still losing weight she has found help from the school psychiatrist but i just really dont wanna go
just today i saw "If you really knew me " on MTV i really want that to be done in my school so people understand how i feel.
Nobody knows how i feel inside I can literally feel the depression eating me from the inside i feel like suicide is my only other option
and that that is the only way to make people understand how i feel.