Well, time to start celebrating the "holidays", whoopee!

Plaster that silly a@@ smile on your face and pretend you are enjoying yourself.

If you don't you will repeatedly get all "those" questions. You know the ones.
What's the matter?
Is there a problem?
Have you been crying again?
I'm sure it isn't as bad as you think?
Why can't you just enjoy the holidays like everyone else?

I'm sure you have your own to add to the list.

Next week I'm spending (US) Thanksgiving with my 2 sons and d-i-ls and 2 grandsons. It's the first time in over 10 years we have all celebrated a holiday together. Everything says I should be happy and somewhere inside I will try.

Truth is, it won't happen. I'll be the one walking around with a Kleenex in hand saying "allergies". I'll be the one who disappears to the restroom for awhile to have a good cry. I'll be the one with the smile on her face and tears in her eyes. It's rather pathetic when you think about it.

Why can't I enjoy the holiday like everyone else?