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Nov 21, 2010, 06:54 PM
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Member Since: Aug 2009
Location: Fringes of the bell-shaped curve
Posts: 779
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Originally Posted by Rohag
((((((( Lynn09! )))))))
What's behind your words -- the whole of the situation or some new development (or non-development)?  |
 Hello, Good Friend (((Rohag))). Pretty much the whole of the situation, plus some non-development. I haven't heard anything further from the SSA, so I don't know if they are actually going to investigate or not - perhaps they are waiting to see what, if anything, I manage to accomplish on my own. (HA!) Although it is helpful to know that the severity of my ADHD/ADD is a main contributor to the difficulties I'm having dealing with this mess, that knowledge alone does not stop the triggering of those symptoms, as well as my depression and PTSD symptoms, whenever I try to make some headway on this mess.
Right now I have to change to a new Medicare Advantage Plan so I can get an appointment with the immunologist I need to see. I will have to find a new Primary Care Physician (PCP), too, since I'm still getting the same dismissive, condescending, insulting, demeaning, accusatory attitude from my present PCP that I have gotten from the rest of the doctors here thanks to my siblings and the fact that they all share records electronically now. She has not made even the slightest effort to listen to me, or to help or advocate for me in any way whatsoever - she just keeps asking me if I use illegal drugs, and do I remember this and that, and phonetically sounding out "big words" for me - like "imm - u - no - lo - gist" - as if I have the IQ of an amoeba!!!!!  I was a surgical assistant, providing pre and post-op patient care, and transcribing THOUSANDS of hours of medical reports, physicians' notes, surgery notes, histories and physicals, admission and discharge summaries, as well as manuscripts for publication in medical journals on an IBM Selectric long before there were computers to do the work, and long before my PCP was even born!!!!! 
Nevertheless, just like all the rest of the doctors here, my current PCP has chosen to perceive and devalue me according to the false identity that my family members have created and portrayed to everyone - that being, "a demented, delusional lunatic, a neurotic hypochondriac, a pathological liar, a criminal, and an illegal drug user/addict!" 
Sorry, Rohag - I guess I can only keep it all in for so long and then the dam bursts. Oh, well - back to it.  Take good care, Rohag, and thanks for stopping by.  lynn09
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