Hello & Welcome, Amberstar33!

(Feel free to ignore questions; you needn't share anything you don't want.) You posted you started (recently?) on antidepressant medication. Prior to your illness at Christmas last year, did you ever experience anything similar to your current feelings and symptoms? Did the doctors determine what your illness then was? Have you had comprehensive medical workups since?

It definitely sounds as if you are dealing with depression. It would be nice to know whether or not something else (e.g. hypothyroidism, some form of anaemia, etc.) is also present.

Again, welcome, and all the best sorting things out!