Thread: Help...I've fallen and I can't get up....
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Old Nov 21, 2010, 07:25 PM
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Originally Posted by Cherrios View Post
You are MAGNIFICENT! I am so SORRY that someone, so close to you, could be SO MEAN! I know this might sound like it is IMPOSSIBLE because you have such a BIG heart, but you have to NOT CARE what your family says. I know this makes it harder than just not listening, but it is NOT IMPOSSIBLE! Sending strength your way!
Awwww - thanks, Cherrios - you're so sweet. I could fill a book with the hateful, demeaning, degrading things she and the rest of my family members have said to me over the past 60 years. Actually, I don't care what they say to me because I know that their hateful words reveal who they truly are, and nothing about who I am. As I've said in other replies here, the problem comes when others choose to judge, condemn, and abuse me because they choose to believe the horrible lies my family members tell them about me. Even though I have had no communication with any of my familly members since early 2007 (and never will again unless it's in a court of law), I am still being abused by others my family members deceived and manipulated into judging and condemning me (other relatives, life-long family friends and acquaintances, my childhood friends and classmates, and my own healthcare providers I started seeing when I moved back to my hometown in 2001).

I have never been close to my family members - they have always abused me, so I never bonded with any of them. I made the mistake 9 years ago of giving them one more chance to be the kind and caring people they spent almost 2 years convincing me they had become. Instead, they have used this one last chance to completely destroy my life for their own personal pleasure and financial profit. I am having to fight for my own identity against the false identity my family has created and imposed on me to serve their self-interests. And it is those who have chosen to believe the lies and abuse me according to those lies that have given my abusive family members the power to destroy my life - those who have allowed my abusive family members to control their perception of reality - those who have willingly allowed themselves to be used as instruments by my family to inflict abuse on me, thereby becoming abusers themselves.

Thanks for the strength and good thoughts you are sending my way - I promise to make good use of them. lynn09
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