Hello rainwater,

Welcome to pc. I can't speak for bp and I know you are asking about bp. I do have MDD and that has me in constant depression the depth of it varies from chronically deep to light. I cycle in days; I can handle it most of the time, but the checkout times I have to post for support because I just can't handle it at all. Thats been over 4 years of deep depression with breaks of a day or so here and there and anxiety attacks on a daily basis and panic attacks when they feel like happening; they are paralyzing and I have to try to ride them out but like everyone else I feel like I'm about to fall off the perch.

I wish you the best with your therapy and hope that you are able to find a therapist who is good for you.

I swear one thing pc has taught me the most is the vital importance of how a therapist should be and how a therapist should not be.

Unbending, nasty, unfriendly, incapable of empathy, selfish, money oriented, greedy, mean spirited and so many other adjectives I can think of.

When I finish my PhD I am opening a free clinic, there's no two ways about it!

There are sooo many people on this board suffering because they can't afford a counsellor or doctor I intend to make sure that the people in my community can afford both. People deserve access to services which promote better mental health