I can't even...I wish I could copy and paste the whole text conversation here. It continued for a little bit until I realized how upset I was getting. Then I got up and went to the computer and blocked her number. It does feel like the damage was already done.

I'm so glad I see T tomorrow. I'm going to have her read the texts. I'm hoping she will have spoken to group-T about what happened on Sat. I'm just hanging on to the fact that I can tell it all to T tomorrow and she can help me sort it all out.

Jexa, thank you so much for validating me. I really felt like she should be apologizing, too. It helps me so much to know right this moment that her reality isn't the only reality. In her mind she did a wonderful thing and wanted to be friends again after yesterdays session. I, on the other hand, have spent the last 30 hours feeling violated and exposed, not to mention rejected. I am strong enough to not want friends like that. I am SUCH a loyal friend, I will hold on to people way, way past what would be a healthy time to let go.

Anyway, yeah. I'm upset. I'm trying to keep my head on and breathe.