I am worrying more about what my therapist thinks of me

I can't trust that she hasn't changed her opinions of me or is thinking negatively about me and not telling me...then I won't be able to open up effectivly...and honestly,

Its sad that I think my therapist has changed her views of me...I hate that...I don't know what she sees but, I know its different from the day I first stepped in...and is it only me or do any of you have the tendency to be MORE negative, just because you are in therapy and therapy is designated for your problems...I tend to have a more negative spirit there and I think my therapist probably thinks its distasteful.

I am horrible with conflict in relationships themselves...I tend to ignore any conflict but, I can't do this in therapy and thats what makes me feel SOO BAD whenever I have a conflict with my 'T'. I feel like I don't know how to handle conflict, I just hold it inside.