I'm sorry you're going through such a torrid time. I too use PC as part of my support system (I was given the thumbs up from my T too), but have made some really good and honest friends too. At times, PC has really saved my life. When I've been alone, with those awful thoughts cursing through my head, I can come to PC to find some support and someone no doubt will talk some sense into me.

I don't where Jackie ends and the Bipolar starts anymore, but I try just march forward. I have a very limited real-life support system, which at times can make things even harder and more lonely for me, but we need to push on.
I also get a great sense of achievement being able to help others.

Yo've definitely come to the right place if it's support and understanding you're looking for - there'll pretty much be at least one person on here 24/7