Well done for sending that message. I'm sure you'll find it will set up your appointment for conversation to go in this direction and you will walk away having accomplished a hell of a lot in your session.

I'm aslo not brave enough to vocalise things like you have just put into writing. For the time being, I am using the same approach as you (Sending my thoughts in a mail prior to T) and letting T get an understanding of the issues I'd like to work on, just am not brave enough to bring up in a face2face situation. T then directs our conversation, very subtly.

I'm proud you were able to do what you did - it was brave and scary.
Oh - and I totally relate to your feelings too. I'm BP, with a possiblity of BPD - I go through the exact same emotions
((HUGS))