You've suffered a great loss ~ it is normal to grieve. Obviously you haven't grieved for either loss, and it's coming back to bite you. It would help you to talk to a grief counselor. Hospice has great counselors, and you don't have to have used their services previously. Call them and ask for an appointment to talk to a counselor - You will be VERY glad that you did!! I talked to one when my husband died - my daughter talked to a counselor when she lost her baby. It is recommended that you do get support after a miscarriage. This is a REAL loss ~ I don't doubt that you're feeling the affects.

God bless you sweetie, and please make the call. Please update us and let us know how you're coming along later on. Hugs, Lee