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Hi,
I've been struggling with this for a few months now and decided that to post in the hope that I can find some relief.
In June I found out that my therapist - the first one I had ever trusted and formed a strong bond with would not be able to see patients anymore due to the fact that she had lost her license for sleeping with another patient. She was going to try to get her license back but that meant showing the board that she was not seeing any patients and following the rules.
The other problem is that my psychiatrist - who I do not have a bond with recommended her to me and also the person she had the affair with. His - the person she had the affair with - wife is my psychiatrists best friend.
Ok, hopefully I have not confused you. Also I see this therapist at the gym almost every weekend. I miss her terribly and went through a very suicidal state. Our last appointment was in August and I still feel like I will never connect with another person. The things I told her, the trust I had.
I hate this time of the year, getting dark at 4:30, the holidays etc...I just want to talk to her and I know I can't. Even if she did get her license back she has said she would not see me b/c she did not want me to wait for her and wanted me to move on with another therapist. Really??? How do I do that?
Any help/advice would be very appreciated. I hope I have not confused anyone. The bottom line is that I am trying to get over her and feeling like I'll never be able to trust another person again.
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