((esther)) ((bunny)) ((CJR))) thank you for your replies. Today my mom called me to talk again. It is so strange to not talk to her for months or even a year, and then she acts like everything is fine. I know... she has a disease, she is sick. Maybe I am sick myself. And that's part of why I question keeping my parents in my life. Altho it's hard to cut off them totally, altho if I don't I have to deal with the feelings and the hurt over and over. My therapist asked me why I'm so afraid of the feelings. They can't hurt me unless I let them. I have let the feelings taking over a lot of times, acting out on them... even questioning my own drinking and other addictive behaviour. I know deep down many of us are the same, but we choose different paths in life. I am trying to find mine and now I'm very eager to learn what will work for me. So thank you for sharing, I appreciate it!!
/hazeleyes trying to live life...