I don't know what being a 'nudge' means. But it sounds bad. And you are not bad. So stop talking about yourself that way!!! You are always so hard on yourself. Please be gentle with yourself. You are not the rock you named yourself after. You can not keep taking poundings over and over again. Instead you are kind and loving and have soft spots. These all are good things. Please take care of yourself and let us help you.

(((((((((Granite))))))))