I just want to run away.
except i have no where to go.
I cant face letting everyone down yet again.
I start something, then i quit, every time!
started A levels 5 years ago - quit because i am too weak to work through my depression although i kept my part time job.
Started driving - quit
worked in a bank - stuck it out for three years, when i completely fell apart and wasnt even the same person any more, so i left,
now i'm at college again doing something i love, its only 3 days a week, but we get 2 hrs hwk to do a day, and i work the other 4 days.

I was on a definite UP for the past 2 weeks but have been crashing since friday... I dont think its BECAUSE i am bipolar i think its because i am just such a weak willed person.
I get depressed BECAUSE i am so useless.
Rather than i'm so useless cause i am depressed.

i hate it cause i know exactly what needs to be done and i can PHYSICALLY do it.
maybe i'm just a lazy cop out.