Lynn said it SO well, that how can I add anything to it. All I can say is YOU ARE IMPORTANT HERE. You count!!! We NEED you here. We WANT you here!!! Please don't forget that! Many of us feel a bit confused as you do. But we have to keep trying and keep talking - we'll soon find our way. You're doing a GREAT job at expressing yourself. We CAN get past the hurt and the abuse. We're with you all the way. God bless you "Trying" and please keep posting! Hugs, Lee