I just want to say that I have been in your shoes. Took every possible sign that my T was interested in me too. I wanted to be with him and told him that. Unfortunately, we crossed that boundary and it ruined my life.

I know exactly how you feel. What I want to tell you is that (1) having a relationship with your T either sexual or as a friend can have dire consequences. (2) I don't know your background but this is a great opportunity to talk about how you feel with your T and work thru the feelings. The feelings coming up can be from your past. (3) it is extremely hard to work thru these feelings on your own.

I can only hope that your T has boundaries and is ethical. I can now talk with my new T about our relationship and know that she will never cross that line.