we talked about some of this abandonment stuff today. T reiterated what she said in her email. We talked about being in the moment (I have her now, I don't have to start missing her now when she's right there). T said when I'm done I will be ready and I won't need her anymore.

I talked about how I experience abandonment, and about the big sucking hole inside of me. I told her that I think part of why I fear and avoid abandonment is because I don't feel like a whole person on my own. when I lose someone it feels like I'm losing myself.

T didn't say a lot about that but she sure kept taking lots of notes, lol!