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lynn09 · 09:31 PM

Thanks, (((((DancingAlone))))).

Let me clarify a couple of things:

I am still receiving my Social Security Disability benefits; the SSA has NEVER questioned my disability, nor the fact that my disability is both physical and psychological. In fact, at the time I was required by my former employer's long-term disability insurance carrier, 1st UNUM/Provident, I had no primary care physician because my employer's new medical insurance carrier, Empire BC/BS of New York, had not contracted with any medical doctors or facilities in the area where I lived. So, the SSA awarded my disability based solely on my medical records - 30 years worth of medical records that they requested and received directly from my healthcare providers because I gave the SSA access to ALL of my records dating back to the 1970s when I had my back surgeries since that has contributed to my disability even though I worked for over 30 years before becoming disabled. Furthermore, based on my medical records, the SSA awarded my disability on the first submission!! The SSA caseworker called me and said that my medical records had been reviewed by just about every specialist on the review board and that they all had only one question: "How did you manage to work full-time for over 30 years with your medical conditions?" I responded, "Because I wanted to work; I wanted to have as normal a life as I could possibly manage despite my medical conditions and have the opportunity to find out what I was capable of achieving."

The SSA has been waiting since 1999 for my doctors to give my immune-system disorder a name so they can assign it a code so it can be listed in my primary disability diagnosis. They have also been waiting for my doctors to evaluate my other chronic medical conditions to determine to what extent they contribute to my disability, as well. THIS is what my siblings have worked so hard to prevent. They do NOT want my medical conditions evaluated, diagnosed, or treated - they do NOT want my disabling medical conditions substantiated because they want to convince everyone that all of these conditions that my doctors have treated throughout my life and all of the surgeries I have had over the decades are all "delusions" and "hallucinations" asserting that I have been fooling ALL of my doctors my entire life, and somehow causing them to see in lab results and on x-rays, MRIs, etc., things that really didn't exist - even tricking them into doing surgeries on me for non-existent conditions!!!!!! My siblings have even accused me of defrauding all of my doctors, employers, medical and disability insurance carriers, the IRS, SSA, and Medicare, and accuse me of "tricking" the SSA into awarding me disability, and assert that I "chose to be disabled." (Right - I "chose" to live in abject poverty for the rest of my life! )

What I lost as a result of my siblings' illegal interference in my healthcare was approximately $90,000 (just under $500/month after I started receiving SSD benefits) in long-term disability insurance benefits through my employer's carrier. In fact, I lost those benefits twice - when the carrier illegally terminated them in 2001, and again in 2006 when I was dropped from the class-action suit that had been brought against that carrier for illegally terminating my and so many other eligble beneficiaries' benefits. I informed my new doctors here of the lawsuit, but they never informed me that my family members were illegally directing and controlling my healthcare without my knowledge and consent - nor did my doctors inform me that they deliberately made certain that I lost out on recouping any portion of those benefits from the settlement because my family members had convinced them that I was a "demented, delusional lunatic," "pathological liar," "criminal," and "drug addict." That $90K is lost to me forever - there is no legal recourse available to me. This left me with only SSD as income - just a little over $1,000 per month at the time - just over the income limits to qualify for Medicaid, food stamps, assistance with utilities, housing, or anything else; so, I had to pay full price for everything. My brother's solution for my dire financial situation (that he and my sister deliberately created) was, "Put on some makeup, dye your hair, find someone to date, and get a job!" The other $30K that I lost later on was because I had to take early distribution of my retirement benefits in order to survive forcing me to forfeit about 1/2 of that fund.

As for my doctors here allowing my siblings to interfere in my healthcare and giving them access to my confidential personal and medical information - I NEVER signed any authorization or release of any kind whatsoever that would permit my doctors and/or their staff members to do such a thing! When I first moved back here from up north, I wrote an emergency contact designation letter TO MY APARTMENT MANAGEMENT that authorized my apartment management to give my siblings access to my apartment, pets, vehicle, and personal property ONLY IN THE EVENT THAT I WAS HOSPITALIZED, UNCONSCIOUS, AND COMPLETELY INCAPACITATED. At no time since I have lived here have those 3 criteria been fulfilled; therefore, those authorizations were NEVER legally executable. Anyway, as soon as I learned that my brother had lied to me to TRICK ME into moving back here so he could coerce me into signing my Power of Attorney over to him in exchange for access to medical care, I revoked his authorization (2002); and as soon as I found out that my sister had been a part of this "crazy-making" scheme all along, I revoked her's, as well.

But, unbeknownst to me, my siblings used those apartment management emergency contact letters to misrepresent themselves to my healthcare providers as possessing my Power of Attorney!!! ANYONE capable of reading at an elementary-school level could see that those letters did not authorize my siblings to do anything at all with regard to my healthcare. They have NEVER been authorized to participate in my healthcare in any way whatsoever, nor to have access to my confidential personal and medical information!!!

These healthcare providers and their staff members here allowed my abusive family members to manipulate them into becoming abusers themselves - and, now, the only way that they can protect their reputations and careers is by defaming and discrediting me and destroying my life - the very thing that my abusers wanted them to do. It's perfectly obvious to me, too, that the rest of the doctors in the local medical community intend to protect the reputations and careers of their colleagues at my expense, as well. The thing that hurts the worst is that all of the pain and damage that my family members and these healthcare providers have inflicted on me is deliberate, intentional, pre-meditated - none of them ever intended to do me anything but harm.

Thanks for your input, links, prayers, and support, DancingAlone - I need all the help I can get if I'm going to survive this. lynn09