I am sorry for anyone who lives with this disorder. For me its completely excruciating. Trying to find a way to make it through the holidays. Day by day. But the pain of the avpd is profound. I got up the nerve today to actually read about it. I was diagnosed almost 2 years ago. I was shocked. Everything fit me. It was the perfect description of me. Just have to get through the holidays. I cannot post here at pc much. Its part of the Avpd. I do not feel safe posting. I thik the definition of hell is being so totally alone. Sorry for the depressing rant. I hope it will be allright to post that at pc. Good luck to you all. You deserve all thats good