Bipolar is a biochemical disease you feel the way you do because the disease is altering your perception. You are not weak or useless! It may feel that way but it's not true. I know those thoughts like "why can't I cope? Why am I so unmotivated? Other people aren't weak like this..." Don't listen to those thoughts because they are not he truth ( I know easier said that done) and nothing good will come out of dwelling on them. Yes, having bipolar makes life more complicated and a lot of time it sucks but bipolar is not who you are; it is a disease you suffer from. Just know that a lot of us here at PC know how you feel and that we're always here for you. You are strong and you are smart and you will make it through this bumpy bit and come out on top!