I'm sorry you got hurt, Belle. I suppose that's one plus I have for never falling for anybody. It's still lonely sometimes, and sometimes, though I know it's terrible, sometimes I feel like I want to get hurt a little, just a little, to know that my emotions are there at all. And I would talk to a professional but I really don't think I can tell anyone about this except on the internet. I really don't. I'd freak out...