Echoes- Yes, yes it does. Thank you for making that more tactile for me. Sometimes I go about things with the best intentions (like talking about that stuff in therapy). And by the time I get in the actual session, it's flown away to never never land, with it's best friend, the fear fairy. Having somebody recognize it needs to be discussed brings it out of my head. (Breaking up the fairy friends )

Geez- I have gotten something from it. At least in the past. And it's hard to tell if it's him or it's me. But right now things aren't going anywhere. I lack trust in him. And therapy has been a complete standstill for a good 2 months. And he's not really giving me good reason to want to trust him again.

-Thanks everyone you've all inspired me to write a letter to give him in our next session. I may not have the ability currently to open such a conversation with my verbal words, but in writing, I hold nothing back. I believe it comes from many, many years of journaling, when nobody would listen to me speak my mind. Eventually I'll have to ditch the habit. But I should probably work on other first class priorities first. I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow.