Oh I see now. The actual putting yourself out there is what is scarey. Understandable. There was a time when I was also in a most lonely place in that I would stand in the yard, look up at the stars and feel so damn small. Sigh.........those were bad old days. At the time I couldn't step out of what I thought was my lifelong situation. But Time, it can change. It could be something really small that will come along, or really big, you just have to be open to it when it comes along. For me it was a personal trauma in February that broke the spell I had put myself in for safekeeping all these years. The BPD resurfaced with nearly all the problems it carried and forced me to search for answers. Because there was a price if I failed, my husband. This is the goal that caused me to go forward, regardless of the pain it caused.

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time0 said:
No Sara, not your words. Do not worry sweetie!

(((((((((((((Sara)))))))))))))

time0

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