I was just in a new chatroom. The area seemed very nice. There were three people in the chat room. At a certain point, I could see that two of them were typing ( it shows when people are typing) But no words came out. I was in a room with three people. But two of them were in private message with each other. I waited about 5 minutes and then left.

I am having a lot of trouble accepting the dx of Avpd. Some of the things I read about it sort of scare me. I know the dx is correct. But there is something about called DSM5 or is it, DSM-IV, that is either linking it, or wanting to link it to another condition that feels very scary to me.

Anyway, I am just trying to figure out how to make it through the holiday season being so completely alone with this condition. With no support system irl. When I had some money I could sort of buy a support system and community to be part of. But without money things changed dramatically. I hope this all is allright to write.