Hey let's face it most of us would describe ourselves as a shell of what we could be or should be. So the "thoughts" are there for all of us I would bet.

@Suga - hang in there and try and continue to fight the overwhelming feelings of struggle and battle and accentuate any positives you can find. Joy and peace can be cultivated, they really can.

It won't end the other feelings but it doesn't take away what good you build!