raini bet you T is strong enough to handle all that you have spit out to het over the week and will so be thare for you.i'm even sure she knew how you were going to be feeling durring the time that you were gone.i hope she reads your e-mails soon and responds so that she will be able to put your mind somewhat at ease.but i suspect you wont feel totally ok with yourself untill you meet with her in person and see that she is ok your relationship is ok and you are ok and have made it through her vacaationsending you tons of hugs and currage for tomorrow and will be thinking of you.probibly not to helpfull but i am thinking of you