Re: Meds. I have a TON of different pills in my house. Every new foster kid that came in had a new assortment and when they left some took their meds others didn't. It is sometimes useful for when someone comes in on the same med and same dose without their meds and this is very common. Then I have mine and my sons if he is on any. So OD is a very real threat for me when depression hits. I have a friend supervise me once a week while I put the pills in one of those things with the days on it so you remember your meds. He then locks the other meds back in a lock box. It doesn't totally solve the problem as I could do damage with what I have out but I know I would most likely just get really sick on top of the depression. The other possibility may be to mark the meds that may be dangerous. I am in the US but we have a store that has color coated rings they put on the meds for you so you can tell whos meds are whos. Something similar may let your BF know which ones to watch.
When I had kids in my house that may get into pills (some to OD but others thought they were candy... all sorts of crazy things!) all meds were locked. However, I also had a red binder on hand that has all the information in it on what to do for an accidental overdose of each med in the house. You can usually get the information from who ever makes the medication or we have poison control that also has that information.
It does sound like you have a lot on your plate right now. I know how tempting sleep is when depressed (and if it is a suicidal time that I think will pass in less than a day... I sleep all day... better that going inpatient)but try to do some of the other, more active self care things you do (if you want to or not). Also, plan something really nice for yourself or even plan a get together that you would feel obligated to be at. Sometimes having to look foreward to something can make us keep going despite ourselves.
I'm sorry if this all sounds cold and technical. I too am very depressed right now and can't even fake the warm fuzzys. And, like you, I turn to thinking and I have had to make a bunch of safety plans over the years.
2 thoughts on giving too much of yourself that others have shared with me... 1. If you don't take care of yourself first you will not have anything valuble to give to others. 2. Sometimes when we are caring for others we are depriving them of the opportunity to learn to care for themselves and actually doing more harm than good. Raising my son (who has autism among other things) has made me really work on those two thoughts. They are hard to learn (I still suck at it) but worth it in the end.
One last thought... it sounds like you are very good at helping to run a business. Could you make a budget of your time/energy to give you a guide? or maybe come up with a business plan on how to best use yourself for YOU?
yep... overthinking again... I'll shut up (for now).