((((((((((Rainbow))))))))))

I know it's scary to go see T after big e-mail disclosures...I've SO been there.
AND I KNOW your T can handle whatever you bring to her.

I think that T vacations can bring up a lot - before, during, and after the vacation. My T takes a lot of breaks and vacations, and I'm sure that's guided my healing in a different way than if he had been here all the time (although I would greatly prefer him to be here).

T and I have had ruptures around his vacations, I cried for the first time in therapy after a T vacation, I've had to face a lot of my "stuff" when T has been gone and I've been kind of on my own. Vacations can be a really big deal.

Your T won't be surprised that vacation brought stuff up for you. And she won't be disappointed that you had a hard time. She is a good T, and she will be curious, and will want to help you use everything that came up to help move you closer to healing.

Be gentle with you