Thanks Omers. I've read your post and it does hit home. I totally understand. I'm not sure my boyfriend wants to be too involved in the whole meds thing - I think it scares him a little.
I'll get through this. I think for now the worst is behind me. 1 week til I see my pdoc. And if i have to leave her rooms without a script for an anti-dep; I'm walking out and going straight to my GP - sorry for my T if she has an issue with it; she doesn't have to live my life.
I hate having the suicial thoughts, I hate having to be the responsible one, I hate having to put a mask on, I hate having to be there 100% for my bf, I hate my job - I just want to out to be me again!!