fear, hurt, panic, obsessive thoughts, did i mention fear, loneliness, wanting acceptance, needs that i can't fill, wanting physical touch, fear, tiredness beyond my ability to cope with it, listening to an asst manager eat out my co-workers, needs that i can't fill, wanting physical touch, fear, tiredness beyond my ability to cope with it, that my daughter treat me like %#@&#!, not eating, not sleeping, not drinking enough fluids and feeling so helpless because i can't fix myself[/b]