I woke today with the same drab feeling. Get up and automatically feel overwhelmed by my home. I have no energy to do anything. I have to force myself to go to work thinking a cpl more days till a cpl days off. Then I can readjust my problem spots. its so hard when you see these things needing to be done and you want to run away and hide away from it all. Seeing it hurts. I feel so stressed. I am anxious and can't go see others tried to have someone come help me. Always busy when need most. Someday. Maybe someday there will be someone I can truly count on. I don't know I just don't know anymore. Just want to disappear. Screaming in my head. I don't knwow if anyone else gets the pain but it really does hurt.
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