i saw my t yesterday. it didn't go so well. i left in tears. i suppose there are just some days with t that it doesn't go well. i don't really get what "monitoring and regulating my emotions" means. i guess it's somewhere between letting them take control and shutting them down completely. t says i'm getting better. i feel like i'm getting worse. it probably doesn't help that it's the first holidays without my mom. i don't really have a question or anything. i guess i just needed to whine a little.