thankyou for posting and reaching out - that is very brave

I am glad you didnt do what you had planned or we would never have met

you have been through a lot of trboules i can see and have had some help

can you get more help?

its really hard to deal with those ideas on your own - everyone here is here to help but a professional who you can talk to woukld be a great idea

you say youre home now? can i ask where you have been ?

is it somthing to do wiht home that gives you those feelings?

please if yuo get themand feel you are going to act on them get emergency help by ringing your emergency number - or a help lien- or a friend

you are a valuable and worthwhile person and the world is better that you are here - you ahve been trying to get past this and im sure a therapist could help when you find the right one

please take care of you

P7