I have tried so many mood stabilizers. I feel like I am a broken record. I keep posting them, but I am so frustrated with the little glimmer of stability I get and then I go a little too high before all the depressive symptoms are gone and then I get into danger. The last time I was blindsided, but I can feel mu mind doing some of the things it was doing the last time I had to go to the hospital.

So far I have tried:
Topamax
Trileptal
Lamictal
Lithium
Depakote

I can't take benzos because they have the opposite effect on me and make me very anxious. Abilify put me into the hospital with a mixed episode.

I am tolerating Seroquel so far, but I am not seeing enough of a result. I know there are other antipsychotics to try. I feel like I am a ping pong ball inside my own brain.