Hello {{{{{{Yellowrose}}}}}}} and welcome.
You took a huge step reaching out here to us and you should be proud of yourself. We are all in this together and will be an ear and a shoulder for you.
I am 36 as well with 2 boys...an 8 year old and a 2 year old. Do you see a therapist to help you learn coping skills for dealing with your stresses? Maybe your doctor can refer you to someone. It helps so much to be able to talk about it.
Keep posting and take care of yourself.

Heather
"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life - it goes on."
~~Robert Frost