Thank you for your responses. I have tried to reduce the stress in my life but unfortunately it isn't possible right now. As far as the meds go, I have tried every pill on the market and most send me into a deep depression. Seroquel was my last resort and it sent me crashing into suicidal depression. The only thing that seems to work is a combination of rittalin and hemp and only to a moderate degree, it at least make me functional. I would prefer a legal alternative to end my suffering but I don't think its going to happen. I guess the worst part of this is knowing it will not go away, unlike cancer or diabetes bipolar will not kill you. So that means I have to find a way to cope until someone invents a new drug.