There is so much good advice here. I am very grateful.
My psychiatrist has asked me to take 500 mg of Depakote. I am scared of it. I don't know if I can take it or not.
The best place for me was likely the hospital, to sort this all out and have somebody regulate my meds. I am scared of the hospital that I can go to. There is only one in my area that my insurance covers. I was there a year ago. They were really lax about room checks, which resulted in my husband forcing sex acts on me twice. Nobody checked. I think the simple smell of that place would traumatize me.
I am cornered...with no safe place to land.
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Originally Posted by PT52
hi irishgirl4, there has been a lot of good advice here, I hope that you'll use what will help. My husband was emotionally abusive, too and once I learned not to buy into it, it's definitely better.
I know this is an awful feeling...  happiness is a tough one, hope? - you're reaching out for help, that's hope. Excitement? I guess it depends on your definition of excitement.
Joy...you may not feel it now, but you will see that joy will come from four little smiles that are waiting for you when you walk out of the dark place. Don't give up.  |