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Originally Posted by suzzie
velcro003, I guess there are 4 fears for me. One, I would be a fool to think any man would be interested in me. They never have been even when I was young. Except for the wrong reasons. Two, because Ive never had many friends or a close family I never learned how to bond to anyone emotionally. And also, Ive never been physically close to anyone, even family (hugs and stuff).Three, because the physical and emotional together mixed with the csa triggers would do me in. Four, I dont trust anyone, even myself. So I just advoid men altogether. I would have liked to of gotten married and had kids and done everything thats goes with that. But I know now that that will never happen and its ok. Thanks for being interested.  |
Don't worry my friend, I have almost the same issue as you, even though for me I do grow up with a family that have no trouble of showing physical closeness to anyone, and yet I'm still quite very similar as you, I could hardly bound to anyone, I do have a trust issue to others even with my self and my family too, and for me to have a partner/ husband is a huge deal for me since to do that, I will felt like I'll lost my freedom, I'll become a burden to my partner or something too as well....I just cannot see commitment as a golden gate for me is more like a dark gate for me....and yeah I end up being what I'm now, 30 years old virgin, if it is making you feels better I'm alone but at least we are alone together
