Gosh you all are lovely, thank you all for your replies and I love all of your positive helpful quotes.
Bpd my daughter is 4. If you have ideas, I'd love to hear them.
I didn't really think of going to the cinema with my daughter alone. I seem to have it in my head that it's better with other company, and often that other company isn't available... so we tend not to go/do.....
I lacked a lot of attention growing up, I had to be like a parent to my siblings at a young age, so as a result I find it hard to give my daughter the attention she needs and deserves. It's not that I agnore her, they are just short, few conversations.

Madisgram....I like what you have to say about giving family thoughts "rent space" in my head...it's actually so true..... I think I'm too much aware that my daughter & I aren't a complete family so I concentrate on it more and more and compare myself to "real" families causing me to feel worse......and the cycle continues!

Phonenix - I hear you....I'll wait a bit to get over my last very uncomfortable experience with a counsellor before returning to hopefully a new better one! It's always hard starting out with a new one..

Billiej....thank you, however I feel our countries and time difference will make phone chats tough...I can relate to you and your dad, my dad is in his 70's and suffers from depression...it's very hard to accept and deal with. I tend to avoid him at times because of it as it does rub off......it's frustrating...

Tks again....